I need to self study my psychology better so as to help myself because I live in a very poor country with health system in shambles. I tried services of 4 doctors and 4 therapists. I wasted a lot of money despite being with modest means. Last doctor which did a really good diagnosis told me that I am suffering from depression, schizoid personality disorder, interpersonal issues with parents. But therapist is not good and doesn't offer help. There is no hope for better treatment in my country and I can't leave it because I can't afford. Two doctors were dishonest and 1 labelled me for bipolar and 1 for schizophrenia which I don't have.
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Question : I have studied few self help books like: CBT in 7 weeks by Seth Gillian, Adult children of emotionally immature parents, The Gentlemen's Book of Ettiquette. But I need to understand my personality completely so as to verify where the problem is and then read some books to have better coping mechanisms (I want to live, I want to understand my issues, I want to improve myself). So, Can people on the website suggest some books so that through doing tests and reading the books so that I can understand the core of my personality and issues? I want to know the books that focus on core parts. I am a major in physics from a good institute and would be able to follow the books I think. I have no faith left in therapists in my country. I take medicines prescribed by psycaterist religiously but I think without knowing deficiency in my personality and correcting them, it would be hard for me to survive in the world. I have googled a lot of stuff but I think it would be good for me to read proper books.
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